mmmm pretty pretty please.  it's been a few lovely fall days.  I wrote a new story last week but my computer might be fried :( i should find out within the next few days if it's fixable or if i'm out my laptop.  chicago is coming up quite soon, as is my birthday! exciting.  my best friend will be coming into town she's so pretty. it's quite difficult to upload pictures here, huh? boo. 

 thanks bleubird

for the pie recipe!  i'll be making them this week as a few cute feather crafts with my neighbor.  she'll love the headbands :)  

short post.  i never post.  no one reads.  

kelsey 

I wish I was more savvy with this blog thing so I could do a few fun things with my site-- oh well. Finally, I found a site that allows me to make an hourly calendar.....I think my anxiety is hiding under my inability to be organized this year, uhho. Subconsciously I'm pushing off cleaning everything, but no more! Today I will get everything done before I go to my boy's house for lunch...or at least partially done. These next two months will be so much fun; I'm traveling to Chicago and hopefully New York to see my dad. I think there's something about being in our element that allows us to get along so well, so hopefully my time on the east coast will prove me right. School has gone so quickly and slowly...and in a short time I've figured out what I'm truly interested in and how Spanish isn't a part of that. I think I lost my love for all languages because of the extremeist theory...which I've found to be extremely true in the past few weeks. Even though I haven't been getting any of my important work done (important could be considered relative, I guess) I've still gotten a lot of thinking done. It has been a wonderful past 5 months. I don't even need to say A New Start anymore..I'm comfortable with how things are going..I just need to step it up a lottt. College applications this week? Check. Room? Check. Homework? Check. Reading? A must have. Thank god for calendars.

This fall is beautiful. I've freed up much more of my time, my grades are raising, I'm working on a new project, college is working out, I'm motivated, I have a wonderful boy by my side. I love this.

I don't think I've been this happy with my life.

Goodnight.

I have three shifts left! Thank god. It's not that I don't love making the most tasteful espresso creations for non-tipping customers, hmmm, but fall is too lovely of a season to be stressed with college applications and work and finishing assignments that are pointless for the future. I'd rather spend every Tuesday and Wednesday outside writing and working on my portfolio. Time management is almost impossible with this job!; which is weird, considering I work two days each week. The floor of my room is compiling massive amounts of clothing but I can't find anything to wear nor am I able to find any of my school papers. Maybe I should cancel plans tonight and have it be a productive hour after work. Eh. I'll have to see. Thought about it, I'm pretty sure it's going to be a productive night, yes. I wrote the beginning of quite the lovely (but somber) new piece tonight. I really need to finish my room...how many weeks have I been saying that? It's an in process project and it has got to be finished, it's driving me crazy. I can't find anything and I don't have my little corner. Time for a lab write up....schedule to come.

These past few weeks have been so stressful...hopefully they'll get better. My room has yet to be finished, but I've been getting little productive things done for the past few days now. I started running again! I think taking new steps in life needs a little bit of mental preparation...so maybe the past few days have been just that? I'm mentally preparing myself to be extremely productive over the next few weeks. I've started a few new projects/brought back a few old ones, so hopefully those will be able to be done today & this weekend.

Well, I just woke up from a little two hour nap, and now I'm ready to get on with the day.

I listen to the waves and see how they fold into one another. Each wave carrying a different memory...touching each other, exchanging minerals and with them stories. How wonderful it would have been to be one of those waves. To be constantly suspended in history and always int he making of it. I think about my life in relation to those waves and how if I could change it, I would. How I would trade stories and make memories with more people, and how I wish my soul would have touched more parts of the world. So now, maybe it will. I feel my feet pull out of the sandy holes they have dug for themselves. I watch as my body walks into the crashing waves and swims further out into the current. My body will finally touch all parts of the world. I am completely suspended into the ocean as my body disintegrateds into tiny grains of sand. I am and will forever be suspended in history and the making of it.

In less than 24 hours, I'll be back to the life. Good people, good music, good writing.......I'm excited. This week has been such a test and I'm glad it's over, however, ehhh actually no howevers. I'm just glad it's over.

I started my class on Thursday and it seems to be exactly what I was looking for. Oh how life comes full circle and everything I could have wanted is currently here.

I've been making traveling plans for the past week. Upcoming: LA and Yellowstone National Park. So excited for the latter.

A drive up to the book store may be necessary in this upcoming week as well...once I get paid. Also, I learned my lesson with my pay check :( I'll have to start documenting what I pay for because I have no idea where half my money went, oh well....I'm paid on Thursday! There are so many projects to be done this week. Hopefully my boy will be able to help :) Ohhhhh yes. By Saturday morning I expect all of my new furniture to be moved in. Finally!